Frustrated!

Kiddo {all irritated & frustrated}: Amma! I can't control my hands & legs
Me {a bit lost & sad}: Yes, I know that feeling baby....
Kiddo {all wild now}: When will I be able to hug you again?

Its been more than a week since we had to keep a distance. And now both of us are equally frustrated and wild that there is no end to it. And I look up & ask Mr. SuperPower... She is my only solace and I am not allowed to touch her! WHEN CAN I HUG HERRRRR???? :-(

I have to admit... I am missing the feeling of that head resting on my chest & spreading its warmth on to me...

Sigh!

Grrrrr! I will sooo get my chance Mr. SP!! I so will!!

Aaaaaaaaaaaa :'-(

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Wishful Thinking

Heights of wishful thinking??? Has to be... 

And I wonder... if... I... ever.........

Yipz! Wishful thinking it is! Aaaand... I have a lot of time ;-)

Enjoy the song.... :-) 

That special Walk

I had been on house arrest sice last Thursday. Bed ridden since Friday and out of sight since Saturday. 

So... today when Kiddo & Mom decided to go out for a stroll at night.... I was tempted... I seem to have gained enough energy to go out on a stroll with them and my eyes were much better than yesterday.  Since it was night, the courtyard was empty. So I believed it would be safe for me to step out.

A few minutes and I realized... my eyes are not upto it yet... but then the cool breeze just did not allow be head back home.... I found myself torn....

Thats when I started walking.... with my eyes closed.... It was amazing.... The only sense working was the touch... the feel of the breeze on your skin... I do not have enough words to explain it... but for me.... it was amazing... and to a certain extend liberating too...

Kiddo... you were amazing with me during the stroll.... Mmmmuah... I love you.... :-) :-* 

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Disconnect to Connect - Part 1

Yea... Part 1 comes in after Part 2... ;-)

This was done sometime last month when I decided to go off the internet available on my cell phone. I was amazed at the amount of time I had & what all Kiddo & I ended up doing... :-) It is an interesting concept to try... You too should... sometime... Maybe not for long periods like I do... But try it during 1 weekend & experience the difference.... :-)

A song?

Is there a song... irrespective of the number of people coming & leaving your life... reminds you of one single person... every single time you listen to it... not just the person... his/her calm genuine caring smile.... Do you have any such song? 

I pose this question... and I make a narrow escape from being beaten to death... :-D So I post here.... is there any such song? One song? Psst! If you don't mind sharing.... Why not put THAT song of yours in the comments section? 

PS. 

I am not responsible if you do not physically position yourself appropriately before asking this question & get hurt in the process. 

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Instant Acceptance

Father tend to first say "No" to any new proposal. His attitude toward the strange woman who so readily enlisted Mother's sympathy was an example of his customary caution. Aversion to instant acceptance - typical of the French mind in the West - is really only honoring the principle of "due reflection". - Excerpt from Autobiography of a Yogi.

Aversion to instant acceptance or instant submission... Yea! I know that very well... Due reflection... Hmmm... I am not even aware whether I do it......


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When you have Nothing but Time

Never knew drugs can do such strange things to you. Since every single department in my body

decided to undergo maintenance... I was left with no choice but remain in bed. If eyes would open... then maybe stare at the ceiling. Ceilings in Bangalore are so boring. There is not even a moving fan to keep you awake!

Of all the weird things that I experienced over this period... I found these interesting enough to remember.... :-) The drugs in the system does help. 

Yea... I out do my own self at times... many times ;-) 

1 Removed fb app from phone
The first thing I did when I knew things are not going to be great was to remove the facebook app from my fone. Yes! That gave me a lot of time... even if they are for weird stupid things.... I got a hell lot of time..... My imagination (or creativity as my friend would call it) soared. I am sure I have already made him proud ;;-) Yes! He had no other option but listen to me... :-D 

PS. He is still breathing... :-) 

2 Ex-cess are what they are...... excess!
If you want to tickle your ego... Go ahead nudge theirs & you will know..... it was all baseless & one sided. But yes.... Thinking about the ifs in a whole new dimension can be an excellent pass time... Oooo... at times exciting too... ;-) 

3 Redoing the video of the song pani vizhum malar vanam
Yea.... listen to the song.... then go watch the video... then listen to the song again with an understanding of its meaning... You do agree that the video has to be redone, don't you?
I was listening to this song that day & I knew how I would be redoing that video. That entire song just flashed 1 frame after the other... till the very end of the song... :-)
Now if you know someone with the money & contacts to make this happen... let me know... I am thrilled about this... err... Kavilammee... he/she too should be a nut case like me... Please... :-(

4. Youtube can be a saviour
No! I was not watching movies.... Remember... all systems down including vision! Now don't go into the deeper meanings of vision.. lets just keep them at a physical eye-sight level... :-)
I was using it to listen to music. Started with the malayalam nostalgic series. Then moved on to Tamil ones... :-)
Thanks to people who have uploaded 10hrs of arr songs... I can never get bored... Mmmmmuah uploaders... I love you.... :-) :-* 

5. I want to act in a tamil song!
Courtsey... the song Sonnalum Kelpathilla Kanni Manathu
At least the singers do an awesome job. I think there will be many such movies.... the movie will be horrible... the actors would have done a pathetic job... but the songs would be awesome.... you get goosebumps even after knowing that this great song belongs to that lousy movie... one such movie is.... Kangalal Kaidhu Sei
But everyone behind the song would have done such a great job that even I feel like dancing and acting!! 8-)
:-D

6 He : Good that you didn't have a north Indian boy friend. 

Yipz! I always interact with great minds... Hmmm... should I call them logicians? Thats the conclusion he draws after hearing that a good chunk of malayalam songs are ruined for me... Well... he does have a point... if other languages are also ruined... I will have no where to go.. Or....... maybe... until I get the right one.... I should only play around with malayalee men.... maybe I should try assamese or oriya... But definitely not a Tamilian... 

This entire down time it was Tamil songs that kept me strong. If not convinced... refer to point 5 ;-)  

7 He : Please don't listen to sad songs like we did on New Year's eve
That guideline did help to a certain extend. I cleared my music player & loaded with a completely different set of songs. Listening to it... I get enlightened again.... ;-) Mom does have a point.... I did lose more than blood during that accident in 2000. The songs and music around that period is when that full, unbiased, for-no-reason smile stops for me.... 

8 Homo sexuality.... an interesting concept... 

As an individual living in these times... in this society... Yes... I do need to broaden my views. I might need it.... Especially when it gets mixed with Tattoos! 

9 I am in love with Sunny Wane. Someone really needs to help me get a date with this guy! Kavilammeeeeee.... please... chakkarayallee.... please........ 

Okay... I have reached the end of my physical capacity for the day.... I will wind up for the day now... 

As I am on my path to recovery.... I wonder.... Well... lets just see how the times ahead are going to be.... I am sure everyone around will help me keep it as interesting as always... 

Thanks for the support guys... I felt myself slipping... if it wasn't for you guys.... I wouldn't have been on my path to recovery this soon.... I owe you guys a great rest of the year... Mmmmmmuah! Thank you... Thanks a ton... :-) 

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Bring it Ooooon!!!

So! You think I will crumble? Let see... Bring it On! I would also like to know what my breaking point is!!!

Come on Mr SuperPower! Lets see what you & I are made up of!!

Kavilammeeeeeee... Sigh!




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Pudhu Vellai Marahe

I envy the lot called poets! How do they do this??? =-O

nadhiyae neeyaanaal kadal naanae
siru paravai neeyaanaal un vaanam naanae

Uff!



Lyrics & Translation lifted from uchilpuneeta.wordpress.com

pudhu vellai mazhai ingu pozhiginradhu //A hitherto unknown white rain (snow) falls in this new place
indhak kollai nilaa udal nanaiginradhu //The dazzling body of the full, beautiful moon is drenched in it too
ingu sollaadha idam koodak kulirginradhu //Formerly unknown parts of my body are feeling cold
manam soodaana idham thaedi alaiginradhu //And my mind wanders in search of a pleasurable warmth

nadhiyae neeyaanaal kadal naanae //If you are the water from a river, I am the bank towards which you flow
siru paravai neeyaanaal un vaanam naanae //If you are a bird, I am your sky

pen illaadha oorilae adi aan pookaetpadhillai //Flowers aren’t bought by men in the absence of women,
pen illaadha oorilae kodidhaan pooppooppadhillai //Flowers don’t bloom in the absence of women.

un pudavai mundhaanai saaindhadhil indha bhoomi pooppooththadhu //When the edge of your saree slipped and touched the earth, flowers bloomed all over.
idhu kamban paadaadha sindhanai un kaadhoadu yaar sonnadhu //Who whispered these words into your ears, that even ‘Kamban’ (a tamil poet) did not sing?

nee annaikkinra vaelaiyil uyirp poo vedukkenru malarum //When you embrace me, my body blooms like a flower,
nee parugaadha poadhilae uyirp poo sarugaaga ularum //If you hadn’t accepted my embrace, I would have withered away.

iru kaigal theendaadha penmaiyai un kangal pandhaadudhoa, //Are your eyes scorching this body that is yet untouched by anyone?
malar manjam theradha pennilaa en maarboadu vandhaadudhoa? //Has the moon- faced woman who hasn’t yet seen flowers in bloom, come to play with me?

pudhu vellai mazhai ingu pozhiginradhu //A hitherto unknown white rain (snow) falls in this new place
indhak kollai nilaa udal nanaiginradhu //The dazzling body of the full, beautiful moon is drenched in it too
ingu sollaadha idam koodak kulirginradhu //Formerly unknown parts of my body are feeling cold
manam soodaana idham thaedi alaiginradhu //And my mind wanders in search of a pleasurable warmth

nadhiyae neeyaanaal kadal naanae //If you are the water from a river, I am the bank towards which you flow
siru paravai neeyaanaal un vaanam naanae //If you are a bird, I am your sky 

Speech Unlimited!!

He : You gals were talking from 1 in the noon till 8 at night??

If his eye lids had gone any wider, his eye balls

would have popped out of its socket... :-D

My dear friend... Never underestimate the speaking capacity of two jobless females.... :-) 

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Sick of being Sick

Sprained back

Kiddo's broken leg
Constant throwing up of food
Loss of appetite
Kiddo falling ill
Me acquiring the virus from Kiddo & falling ill
Low bp
Loss of fluids
Eye infection
Acidity
IV drip

Now all that is remaining is a confirmation of Jaundice!

This is soooo not worth it!! 

Note to self : Serve self with an extremely painful & slow death!!! 

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Stubborn Scale

Feeling frustrated that inspite of all those hours sweating it out AND diet control your weighing scale doesnt
budge? There is an easy way out... Pray that you fall sick & you can easily get rid of those 2 stubborn kilos... O:-)

Now the trick is... Keeping the scale at that -2... ;-)





PS.
I enjoyed reading the link from where I picked this picture.... :-)

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Get Well Card

Kiddo... This time... it shows that you did it in a haste... :-)

This time she gave me a questionnaire to fill...

Q : How are you felling Amma?
A : I am feeling better seeing the card
Q : Do you have a high fever or a low fever or fever? {Psst! I am not sure what she meant with all these classifications}
A : I have high fever :-(

The design in the inner page is inspired from the Pookalam, I believe. But to me... it seems like an exact replica of whats going on inside my head.... :-/

Thanks Kiddo!

Same League??

He : Seems you both are in the same league.
Me {Duh?}: Who?
He : Anurag & You... Dreamers... Wondering how he comes up with some impossible ideas... Very creative...

This was my friend's observation after watching the movie Burfi!

Judges please note.... Anybody who wants to punch him for this... Buzz me... I can give you his exact locations... O:-)

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Bear in the House

Yea... The bear left its footprints... Supposedly its the same bear as in the Goldilocks' story.

Fight it!

He : The person who will be grounding you will have to initially have a fight with you. 

Well... Can't agree more with him... So... here goes the updated list... 

Fighter

Private Jet/BMW/Audi 

6 packed/4 packed/Flat Stomached 

Loaded 

V-shaped 

So... if you think you have these... You may reach me at "double 2 double 5" 

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Kick them Out!

She : Girl!! You need to send all those girls in your house away & get some man in!

Going through the pictures I took of Onam Sadhya today... I completely agree with her... :-/

But then when you think about all the trouble... its better to have all these girls around... :-D

Happy Onammmmmm!

PS
Thanks to my support systems.... If you guys hadn't pushed me last year... Onam would have been just another day for me... :-) 

Apana Mudra

"This mudra supports the removal of waste materials and toxins from the body, as well as eliminating urinary problems, according to Keshav Dev." - An excerpt from Mudras, Yoga in your Hands.

Now I know... Why is my system is rejecting food that is not cooked at home, especially non-veg food not cooked at home? I have been experimenting with the Apana Mudra... :-)

;-) O:-) :-D

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Some like, They like

Kiddo {deducing after observing a series of conversation}: Some people like what they dont like. 

Well... what she meant to say was... 

Some people like what the others dont like!

Kiddo... if it werent for these dialogues.... I would have forgotten that you are still a kid... Mmmmmmmmuah :-) 

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Forgiveness

She : I just knelt down and cried it out and asked for forgiveness. 

And it dawns upon me.... I keep going back to Him & prostate. Something goes on in the insides. But I could never figure out what is that overwhelming emotion was. Now I understand... I have never ever asked for forgiveness.

Thank you my dear... One day... when the time is right.... I will tell you... what you have done for me... For now... a humble prayer for you & your family.... :-) 

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Yippee

Thank You my dear enlightened friend.... At times... your timing is impeccable.... Mmmmuah :-)

Disconnect to Connect - Part 2

"After all life is about getting elevated... irrespective of How"

I interact with great minds... ;-) Or maybe its the effect of external stimulants... ;-)

Happy Onammmmmm :-)

PS.
This is our Pookalam for the Day 

Turn of Events

Sometimes.... Even things that you considered to be a total disaster can turn to your advantage.... :-)

My family just increased by 4... Love you guys! Mmmmmuah!

:-)

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Falling in love........

I simply loved the title of this blog entry. Its been a while since I have been experimenting with Mudras. But then... a few days back... I bumped into this one...

The Acceptance Mudra

I do not know the sanskrit name for this mudra. But I understand... that is my starting point.... Before I experiment with the red... This is where I should start.... While I am going through the cycles of denial & excitement associated with any experiment.... I know... I have fallen in love with Mudras.......

:-)

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Who else would?

She : If I don't speak for myself... who else would? 

Yeaa... She was trying to drive home a point. And it was not about being talkative & doing the fun talks... 

Sigh! Communication is not my strong point....... :-/ 

Eskaaaaape!! 

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Heights of Joblessness II

Some perks of disconnecting... ;-)

 Yipz! We are a few days behind in starting with the Pookalam... But as they say... better late than never... O:-)









This is what I get when I asked for 10mins of silence!! Now I am :-X :-D

Heights of Joblessness

This is what happens when two goofy girls get together... :-D

Yes! It does look cute when my baby does it... O:-)

license to k???

Kiddo : So... now he will be kissing her?
Me : Whaaaat? Who told you?
Kiddo {in that all knowing smug tone}: I know... Thats what married people do.

The topic of our bed time chat was one of my friend's marriage! I was not sure whether I should be hushing her thoughts... Well... for now... I have decided to let this be... :-D

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Sleep Interrupted!

She : Awww.. You have forgotten it rt??? How it is to wake up throughout the night? 

Yes! She does have a point. Kiddo was toilet trained at a very young age. So I didnt even have to wake up for nappy change since she was 2. At night, she is happiest if she gets 14hrs of uninterrupted sleep. So.... yes... I had forgotten how it was to wake up at night. That too... because of subtle external factors..

And then it happened... When she fell ill, Kiddo's doc asked me to make the 'temperature chart' at 4hrs interval. And I go berserk! Emotionally that is. One of the reading had to be at 2am. The question daunting me was... Will I be in my senses to even hear the alarm ringing?

Whatever said & done... I have exceeded my own expectations! :-) Its been 3 consecutive nights & so far I haven't missed a reading. One more night to go... Or is it two? And... honestly... more importantly... I did sense her shivers when her temperature goes haywire at night.

Kavilammeee... help me through this one... :-( 

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Support

She : You should inform him, you can do with some support in days like this.
Me : Duh????

This was her response when she heard that Kiddo is down with fever. When I enquired about her children, also keeping unwell, my mouth fell open & I was going through mixed emotions. And I conclude... I am in a much better situation... a whole chunk of tasks are eliminated because of the absence of supports in my life.

My dear... I admire the manner in which you handle things... Mmmmuah! :-)


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Wake up & Get Going

This month my close friend & mentor decided that its time he took matters into his hands. He is on a plan to make me more focused & active. To start with, he picked something close to both of us... Yoga & Meditation session... at the place that brought us together.

Handling a crowd as big as 40 is a completely different experience.... :-) Thank you my dear enlightened friend... I am looking forward to more such activities... :-)

Thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu... :-) I thoroughly enjoyed walking amidst all those people... :-)

PS.
This session was conducted last week. But, it is only now that I could get hold of the images... :-)

Starting the day...

She : Do you know of any divorcee guy looking for a gal?

On days like this... I can only see humor in questions like these...

Kavilammeeeeee....





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Paadam Namukku

This is not the first time I am listening to this song. But today... when I listened to this song... All I could hear was this line...
Oru chiri kondu nammal
Oru Karthika theerkkum

Please don't ask me to translate this. I shall update this page when someone gives me a proper translation to these lines. For now... chiri = smile... Karthika = I believe they are referring to Karthika Deepam.

Uff! This song has been in the loop for more than 30mins... And every single time the girl says this line... I can actually feel my heart skip its beat...

Irrespective of the mechanics & outcome & what-nots... I am sure all of us would have experienced this at some point or the other...... :-) Maybe I should hang on to this line for the rest of the day... Oooo... my heart just did 11 Soorya Namaskaars again....

The Void

Jonny kuttaaaaaa

You had me with that shy... dimpled... not-so-innocent smile when you appeared for Gladrags Manhunt... the V shape... the 4pack... Err... wasn't it so those days? Whatever... you get the picture rt? Well... to be honest... not coming 1st in that competition too worked its charm on me.... Blush! Blush!

But after that... all I could relate with you was... a SANE chunk of meat! SANE(Shock Adichalum No Expression) being absolutely expressionless even if you were to be electrocuted... Gee... :-D

For me... Shootout at Wadala too was a 'meat' play....

And then.... it happened.... I did that nose dive again with Madras Cafe!!! Aaaah! That was an awesome bet dear... awesome bet...

Or should I congratulate the director??? ;-)

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Table Tennis

Gee... :-D

I am reminded of the effort my friend had to take in teaching me Perspective Projections for my Engineering Graphics exam... He will have a field day viewing this image... :-)

Pure Matter

"If what one finds is made of pure matter, it will never spoil. And one can always come back. If what you had found was only a moment of light, like the explosion of a star, you would find nothing on your return."

Reminds me of the butterfly quote... :-D 

Hmmm.. Today a friend had called me up & was expressing her hopes. My dear hopeful friend... that would be one butterfly down :-) 

Coincidence!

Recently read somewhere... "There are no coincidences. There is always a link that connects one thing to another.". I do not remember the exact line. But it was something like this.

Well... does that explain two completely different people posting similar images in their facebook profile on the same day for me to read????

=-O

But have to admit. At times... Such strong statements does take a lot of negativity out of the system. I just hope thats exactly what this post did to them. 

Ghost in the house

Kiddo : You cannot come to our house because there is a ghost in our house & she doesnt allow boys into

the house.

Context :
After a dinner outing, my friend's son did not want to end the weekend festivities. He wanted to stay back at our house. And, this is what kiddo tells him.

All the adults in the car, my friend-his wife-me, were awestruck. I always admired how kiddo understands stuffs I could never understand... human emotions... masked emotions... situations... anything.. But this just swept us all our feet. She not only understands that there is a 'Ghost' in our house, she also understands that the Ghost has issues with men coming into the house. 

Kiddo! Next time... before I get into something... I will check with you. I am sure that will save me a lot of time & effort. 

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