Existential Crisis

Kiddo {throwing all noise, no bitterness tantrum}: I am having an existential crisis.

I couldn't help myself but wonder... How do you spell it? She is talking about things I didn't know existed until recent times.


Picture Courtesy: knowyourmeme.com

3 Steps to Spontaneity

He: Need to add some spontaneity into my life. If I start in a burst, it would seem that I have gone bonkers, also may not sustain. But I can start with some small changes, and be progressive.
He {I guess he heard himself speak}: How hopelessly me! Planning meticulously to be spontaneous!!

Yeah Babe! Try placing sticky notes in strategic locations. Adding calendar events too help.

My Swadhisthana & Manipura chakras just drowned itself into my Muladhara.


Picture Courtesy: www.psychologytoday.com

Right amount of information??

Last morning, I had visited my young friend (a 17yr old girl) who had lost her father that day. She was running around doing what has to be done within the house. At the very first private opportunity, she asks me... Her eyes filled with all the questions in the world..... 

"What does this mean aunty? Are we going to be poor? Do we have to move out of this house?" 

It has been a day since this question. All I still remember is her eyes - the doubts, the questions, the insecurities... 

That made me think.... When do our children stop being too small to be part of household finances? I remember going to banks & encashing cheques, getting Demand Drafts, etc all by myself. By the time I was in college, I had a clear idea about the expenses. (Yeah! Mom carefully hid the income but not the expenses from me.) 

What sort of evil are we saving the children from? How much is the right information for what age? 

5yrs back, I had sat down with Kiddo & went through her income & expenses. Maybe it is time for me to sit down with her about my income & expenses. 

Picture Courtesy: www.incharge.org

Age is not the limit

They : Awww... But your child is so small, you don't have to worry about these things for a long time to come. 

The moment someone says this, I have a flash back. 

Year - 2012 

That was when the song ‘Why this Kolaveri Di?’ Was released. This was also the year Sonu Nigam’s son did a baby version of this song. This was also the year that Kiddo was 6 yrs old - A small child. 

I was showing her the baby version of the song when she asked me, what is so special about this boy. I got excited & started off with Sonu Nigam. I was showing a few songs of Sonu Nigam. One among them was - In Lamhe Ke Daman Mein from Jodhaa Akbar. 

Few minutes into the song & Kiddo’s sweet, innocent, childish voice went…. Amma…. I feel something in my tummy. 

And you still believe that age has got something to do with these emotions????????  

Rosappoo it is!!

How much ever Big B tried, I am unable to adopt a third party view of things AND give conclusions to my blog. I don't have any conclusions as of now. These are all mere experiences for me. All I have is a bunch of questions. At this point, I do not have any answers to any of these questions. So... I am leaving it as is - just questions. If I come across any answers or conclusions, I will make another blog post ;-)

For now... These are my experiences with my dear Rosa, as she sails through her adolescent years. My Rosapoo Charithams. 

Somebody gonna get hurt real bad

She was a random girl who was seated next to me in bus. Her phone rings. She answers it. After a few seconds of silence, she started… 

How she had to wake up early. 

How she had to wake up early to cook. 

Carry two dabbas - making the already heavy bag heavier. 

All this while she had to reach office before 10.

She also add a note to the person on the other side to be responsible and keep her informed if they are planning to have late breakfast and skip the lunch!! 

From the tone & the way the conversation is going... The person on the other end has to be a guy…😂

How do I know it? I have done this! I got to do this last week too, when my brothers bailed out on me after I was done with my cooking. 

PS. 

In my defence, I was not purposely overhearing. I had my headphones & music on. I could hear her music over the ones played in the phone. 

Strict Environment

Me {tumultuous} : Many people thought that my post was about Kiddo. What unsettles me is that... That people think that she is safe because she is in a strict environment. Pft!!

Dakshayini {with all the calmness she has}: Yes! Look at you!! Grew up in a strict environment. Yet you managed to do all you wanted to do!! 

Well... At least she helped me nail what was bugging me. Being strict or isolation (from anything of child's interest) is not going to guarantee that the child is actually going to do things your way.